My thoughts, views, and opinions......

I write today not from a very happy place. The thing is, I think, no I KNOW that my spirit has been broken. It's not one simple thing; it's an accumulation of things. My world feels as though the walls are tumbling in on me and though I KNOW I should be grateful for the health and safety of my family, which is obviously the MOST important thing, I can't help but feel a little selfish at the same time because while the aforementioned is GREAT, my own personal self is not. As time goes on, I trust less and less people and I'm beginning to believe without a doubt that most people are users, liars, and "untrue." It baffles me how life is at times. Even as I sit here typing, I find it quite hard to voice my thoughts and speak directly from the heart because I know that most people won't even look at this blog. But for those who do, sometimes things aren't as they seem. Just because it seems like I am "ok" doesn't mean I am. Maybe instead of judging me, ask me how I am doing. I love being the giver but I'm tired of people taking from me. I know, sounds like an oxymoron but that's the only way to describe it. I will hopefully get over this feeling but until I do, I remain broken spirited.
M.